well its true
here is what happened today
i got a zune on my last day off and the thing is my child lol...its a halo one with these funny videos...okay not my point
well i go to hang out with sheets, sammy (his sister), rori, and steve...well i break out my zune and me and rori get into pippin...were all singing along and stuff and steve called us bitches lol...well that got us mad so we kinda walked ahead...then steve and sammy pulled our hair and walk ahead of us with sheets...me and rori cross the strret and i go to buy water...they take that ike we left them and they leave...so me and rori go to queens center as was the plan as told to me...turns out we were in the wrong mall...so they come but by tht time were seriously POed so were ke ignoring them and stuff...so at some point i come up to sheets and im trying to explain that we werent being mean...we were just reminising over pippin (lol)...and sammy kinda kept interrupting and stuff...and without thinking i throw a very mean shot at her...like a below the belt thing...which i honestly felt really bad for like thirty seconds later...then steve calls and sheets is all like u made a ten year old cry ur a bitch (which i am how did he not see that before? honestly...lol) then he hung up on me...at the same time rori is mad at steve (which got fixed)...when we al meet up again sheets is telling me that marcus is going to die and he hopes ill cry my eyes out at that cuz i killed his sisters emotions...at least im not physically killing ppl was what i was thinking at the time... (more on that later) and sammys all like i am so happy u didnt go to rent (which honestly i think she meant a little bit things like that come with a little meaning)...then when i apologized they called me hypocritical....TWICE...im evil but ive never been a hypocrite to anyone...ive always been open with everyone...its my flaw...especially sheets...him saing that was the worst thing he could have said to me actually...then he finds out the whole story on marcus...liek the thins i forgot to tell him...(again more on that later)...well everythings fixed now so its okay...
now the deal on marcus...no point keeping it a secret now that hes gone...he signed up fo the marines and was going to leave in september...but his friends found out and kicked him out...which ultimately bumped up his leaving date to today...when sheets threw in my face that marcus was going to die in iraq...which god forbid may actually happen...its four months of boot camp then four years of iraq...in the front lines in a tank killing terrorists...apparently ppl have died in training too...marcus is a brother to me...hes essentially the big brother i never had...and hes helped me through so much...i hnestly dont know what id do without him...the worst part is that i have to tel brittany (the sister i never had) mhyself...and i have o tel her i got the stuff hes saving...his mons ring and a neclace with anointing oil in it...the ring is his moms love and the oil to reming him to be reay to pray for anyone at any time...i remember exactly what he said to me...he was like do you remember when u said i was the glue holding everyone together? i aid yea...and he was like well i am passing that onto you because i want you to step in and take the lead ad be the glue i was...something to that effect...the pressure is on...the sucky thing was...he predicted the whole hing with harris...im actually not suposed to tell...but marcus got a few future predicting dreams and raised a lot of hopes for me...i cant actually say anymore lol...honestly im so scared for him...he ca hande himself but im scared all the more because hes inthe front...in a big giant portable gun...hes not coming back till im 21...and brit would be 16...or 17...
all of this...coupled wih he fact that i havent seen or spoken with harris in like three weeks...has thrown me into insanity....maybe im paranoid...or maybe this is the deterioration of my sanity...bye bye everyone...hello padded walls...
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Christine, I apologized for Marcus. You know that I was trying to defend Sammy. Secondly, I DID NOT wish for Marcus' death. I said that you won't see him for 5 years. I don't remember wishing for his death, as I don't think someone as nice as Marcus, (from what I'm told) deserves to die. Then again, I may have gotten caught up in the moment and said that... I'm not sure... If I did, understand that I am sincerly sorry for what I said. When I said what I did, I wanted to make you cry at all costs, as vengence for Sammy. You know how important she is to me, as she is my little sister, and the most important person in the world to me. Looking back on it, I never realized just how close you are to Marcus. As you put it, he is "the brother you never had". I didn't know he got deported that day. But I know that when I said those things I hurt you badly. Because Marcus is your brother, I'm sure it must have killed you to hear the terrible things I said. But I felt the same way when I saw Sammy crying her eyes out. That's why I had to get you back, even if it meant hurting your brother. Because, like yourself, I care about my family, specifically my siblings, and, more importantly, Sammy. Marcus is your brother, even if it's not by blood. So you know as well as I do that it kills you to see your brother or sister in pain. And you also know that I am especially close with Sammy, so that hurt even more. You know that I didn't mean those things I said, that I was trying to defend Sammy. I honestly hope Marcus returns safe and sound, and I apologize for what I said. If I did wish for his death, you know I didn't mean it, I was upset because you hurt the most precious thing in the world to me, my little sister. So I'm sorry if I've caused you and Joey any pain.
I accidentally posted the same comment twice, so I deleted one of them. that's why the 1st one is deleted. Sorry for everything...
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