its over...actually over...me and harris no longer go out...before the audience of AWWWWWWWWs come in, its okay...im okay...im fine...more than fine actually...im feeling pretty good about the whole thing...okay heres where it all starts...
well, this morning, i come into school, all happyand stuff...i say hi to rori and he most dejected harris ive ever seen...i kid around like i normally do, but not even that pisses him off enough to get him to stop freaking me out...then i sit down next to him, and he just says we need to talk...im already freaking out, i know something bad is coming...im like are you dying...he says no...im like am i in trouble, he says no, we both are...that bothered me to no end...he just kept repeating we fight way too much...eventually it clicks...hes breaking up with me...initially...i freak out...like a lot...hysterical crying...im not too proud of the way i reacted...oh well that isnt important...anyhoo...eventh period rolls around...ive cried for six periods straight...i skipped math cuz i couldnt take it...well, seventh, me and harris are totally avoiding each other...in a flurry of notes delivered by sheetts and himself, i got to say what i had to sa, and ear his side too...the period ends...we talk in person...we settle it all...no sooner are we in wendys when harris starts pushing for me and sheets...honestly...i gave that a lot of thought...id actually like that...i need a bit of time first...i dont wanna rush anything..but i wouldnt mind that one bit...not one itty bitty bit...hes a really nice guy....but to be honest, i dont wanna do to him what i did to jimmy...i dont wanna screw it up like i did with harris...ive already screwed up too much...i dont wanna screw things up anymore...
im so being way more careful with everything...when i let my guard down, was when it ended...i dont wanna be a person who my best friend breaks up with...at the same time i wanna be able to get past all of this...and i think i am...im actually okay...
u know that song from wicked, thank goodness "i couldnt be happier"...well, im couldnt be sadder either...which is okay i guess...well, maybe its all for the best...
on lighter notes...me and rori got this french solo...im the mezzo...yay
bye guys...from single eruaphadriel
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